Can you share a positive example of where you’ve felt loved?
There are so many instances where I have felt loved. Its from strangers to the closed one, varying experiences. When I am totally upset, I overthink on certain factors. My close friend just dials in. They would talk for hours just to keep me diverted. Can I call this affection , care or love ?!!!
I am lucky enough to experience different flavors of affection or love. I stay busy and not work on myself. During these times, my close best friends scolds me. They help me look at the positive side of things. The way I should have been taking care of myself, best friend would do it for me. Can’t be more grateful for having such people in my life. People say family is the only thing which can make you feel loved. But for me there were plenty others. I believe I can say I had many soulmates in my life. They showed me how to love. They also showed me how to be loved.
To love is something special !! But to be loved and felt it multiple times in life is always beyond special.❤️
Rachana !!! Yes that is the name given by mom going against the rule book of caste and religion. According to my family traditions, the birth time and place decides the first letter of your name. Well I do not remember what it was supposed to start with but it was not R !!
Rachana means creation. Its a Sanskrit word which denotes creativity.It can also symbolize the beauty of nature and the power of the human imagination. Ironically as the meaning , I love to write things , think different. My mother loves writing. She chose her first daughter’s name based on her passion.
My name was always been made fun of in high school because of me choosing Hindi as my second language. In Hindi, Rachana is often repeated. It is commonly attached to authors like “Prem Chand ki Rachana” which means Prem Chand’s writing or creation. But for my fate I had a classmate named Prem Chand LOL !!
Where you ever been friends with an overthinker or you are one of them ?? Fortunately or unfortunately am an overthinker. The heights of overthinking I have kills all the momentary happiness. But you know what sometimes it feels good. You think, think and think and come to conclusion on a confused topic.
An example of my overthinking. Lets assume I have some work appointed to be done two weeks from now. A normal person would mark that in calendar and plan it. But what I do is imagine today is that day and start all activities in negative thoughts. Lets say the appointment was to go to some location and meet some person. The imagination starts with what if’s. What if I woke up late? What if I did not get the cab? What if I met with some accident? People would really label me as mad or crazy right !!! That is my overthinking power. But you know what? We overthinkers have a special power. We judge ourselves and make all the routes possible beforehand. So there is always a back up plan for us.
The mind just keeps on adding unfiltered thoughts all over !!! I do not regret being an overthinker. But once in a while, enjoying the momentary happiness is what I am looking for and working towards. Whether it leads to mistake or becomes a beautiful memory that thought has no place.
Basically everything and nothing both I guess. Why everything because each thing in life is like a chain of activities and one co-dependent on other. So if I want to do some part of that chain differently, I definitely need to break that chain. This will not make sense, and I will end up changing everything. And that is why nothing can be done differently. If I have to take one instance, it would be having more faith in my decisions. To trust more in my instincts and not doubt a second on my decisions.
It has always been the past. You know why !! because future keeps me worrying and activates my overthinking power to a stage where I loose it. I have read multiple times to not look back and think about past but my views contradict with that. Why not !! if it has a lot of lessons. It holds a lot of grief that you have overcome. There are also your beloved memories which motivate your now. Too much of anything is poison , everyone should have heard this. Same way thinking too much on past or future is going to harm you. But I would always choose to think of the past. You know what has happened. It is not possible to change the actions already done. Of course, you can be more cautious in your next decisions. Nonetheless, enjoy making mistakes because that is what makes the past beautiful. It is interesting to look back. Your past is your treasure, nobody can steal it!!
Depends on who is giving it !! If it is one of my beloved people then anything would be the greatest when it is given. But if its from not expected person then the comparison program starts for which would be the greatest. Till date, I have received many gifts from my beloved one’s. Whenever I received a gift, I felt happy like a small kid who got their wish. I do not see the intentions , emotions or whatever they gave, I just become happy.
As time goes by, I have realized something important. A listening ear, no matter who it is, is the precious thing you would want. And added advantage, anything given as a token of happiness from these would be the greatest gift for you !!
There is a recent movie in Bollywood which I watched in Netflix which is titled “Three of Us”. Usually before I start any movie I try to judge the poster , the actors and the review around it. It was mostly termed as boring but enlightening movie. When there is a term boring in the review, I start to dig deeper. Ironically, a few boring movies are exactly my type. By the way, I’m not a boring person LOL.
The movie starts with a normal housewife played by Shefali Shah. She goes around doing her home duties like looking after the house, managing the kitchen, and other tasks. In some scenes, she is depicted as a woman with short-term memory loss. She forgets to put salt in the prepared food or remember what she was doing. And yes as predicted she has been diagnosed with dementia.
Out of no where she asks her husband that she wants to visit her native where she did her schooling. The story then focuses on her childhood love and trauma. It also examines the life she left behind, which she never thought would revisit her.
I understood why people described the review as boring. It’s a natural movie that shows her learning about her past memories. It also reveals how her life turned out to be. What kept me going in this movie was the concept or theme which is memories !! I am not sure if the writer wanted to say the same thing. What I felt was that memories are weird. They give you all flashbacks when you least expect them.
When some incident happens in our life, we keep it in our hearts. The instant reaction is rage, anger, sadness, or whatever comes to mind. Acceptance is usually not our first response. But as it turns to memories, we realize how silly or romantic it was. You also think about how dumb you were. These thoughts slowly bring tears to your eyes. Life keeps moving on. When we reach our intended destination, looking back at the past reactivates all those memories. Do not dwell on regret. Accept that it is what it is. If you still have the chance to change it, you are the master of it.
This movie took me to a different world and related in so many instances. Its not a genre which would be loved by all, but who can relate would love it !! And what a talented lead cast it was who delivered the writers message so aptly.
A tale of memories from a person who would slowly erase all her life memories because of health condition. Life can be cruel sometimes. We just want a future where you remember everything from the time you wake up to the time you sleep. But life had other plans which will be always a mystery.
Another year, another beginning . Does it really mean, our life also has a new beginning with new year. Or is it just another day giving you the chance to do what is right for you.
2025 here it comes !! Every year, the days you get are the same. But, as a person, you can change. Your surroundings change dramatically, or there be no change at all. As the years progress from childhood, new year prayers have changed drastically. Initially, they were about “let this year be my year.” Now, they have shifted to “2025 please be kind with me”. The world after deadly covid is not the same. We are alive. That’s the achievement. We have our jobs. Well, good for you. You have a house to stay. Lucky, right!!
I am not sure if 2025 will be kind to me or not. Nevertheless, I want to make sure that 2025 is a year to focus on myself. I aim to be happy with little things. I want to cherish the small circles of people I have in my life. I aspire to be happy for who I am!!!
Well then Happy New Year !!! Let this year bring happiness and joy within themselves and if not , let them find the path to it.
Ah!! Tough to write about this. Each phase in my life, had different opinions on how each person had an impact in my life. But in confident I would say, it is friends. The whole life I have been making friends, friends and friends nothing else. As the phases pass by I did lose one by one as a matter of situations or mistakes or destiny. Each of them affected my emotions. They changed how I look at myself. They taught me how to care more. I learned how to be selfish for my own good. I am thankful to all of them who have been there for me till the end. I am also grateful to those who are not there but still keep me in their prayers.
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