Have you ever felt that someone has pressed a pause button in your life !!

If life would be compared to a movie, each person would have their story tagged to some genre. What would mine look like ah !!!

I guess these thoughts , these life turning quotes or mind boggling events does come only after 30s.

Most of our childhood we spend without thinking what next day holds. Its like the weather, you predict something but it just does not align with that prediction. You laugh, you play, you cry, you enjoy, and you study. Some work but never think of life as a story. Do not tie that story with some judgmental ideas.

Then comes adulthood, we start romanticizing things. We often please people, judge people, worry for every next minute actions and the future. The situation reversed when we reached adulthood. We stopped enjoying life. Or shall I say, we thought we should not enjoy life. We believed that to achieve something, we need to be serious in life. Least that is what we were told!!

The unknowing fact of same story between childhood and adulthood is the crushes and love we have. The only difference it made was the same no judgment vs judging people in a wrong way. If we liked someone in childhood, we approached them. We became best friends without knowing how to judge or express. But when it reaches adult stage, ah there it goes !! we get stuck in a trap for ever or turn to a different person we never thought of.

And then comes 30sssssss !!!! Are you settled ??? Are you married ?? How many kids ?? What happened to your career ?? Are you committed !!! Ah man these questions. How do you answer this if you are single and happy? You enjoy your career and do not want a tag. Still, you are looking for companionship. How do you answer this when you are still finding the right passion in you career. How do you answer this when you are not sure whether you want kids or not. How do you answer this when you are married but not at all happy.

The predefined questions for your 30s come with an extra set of questions. This just ruins everything already worrying you. Lucky those people are who can answer this confidently and not worry on what others think right !! We think we need to be like that. But we forget when something in life collapses in front of us at the right moment.

Someone dreamed of a happy life. Another dreamed of buying a home soon after their 30s. Someone else dreamed of becoming something in life. And we all know not everyone reaches there. The 30s are the hardest to cross. So many things are happening around you. Yet, you feel like life has not been moving.

If life was a movie for me!! Now someone has got bored with the story and paused it. Who will tell the person that there is something interesting coming ahead, you are missing something major. No one can tell right !! You just need to wait for the day when the person comes back. Then they will remember, “Oh, I have a movie to resume.” Tadaaaa!! why did I even pause this.

In conclusion, I believe my life, if it were a movie, would be a genre that is not for children. They would run away from boredom. Adults would cry for a while. Then comes the suspense! What happens to her, who knows let the future unfold and come back in 40s.